Children in Thailand and disappointment.

Recently, I was humbled again and reminded that I am not capable on my own. I was scheduled to lead a missions trip to Colorado to work with a camp and serve an inner city church. I was super excited to see what God would do in and through the people that I would lead on this trip. Here's the thing... About three weeks ago, I found out that the people that we were going to serve were not going to be in the area any longer in Colorado. This rocked my missions world. I love short term missions and believe that they can be absolutely life changing and so I quickly began looking for another route that our team could take. I didn't find one that was suitable after a couple weeks of searching. I had to go back to the team and tell them that I didn't have anything. It was humbling. But I am reminded of this last summer in Thailand as I think about what it means to live in humility.

There was an afternoon when we had the opportunity to hang out with AIDS infected kids playing in the large pool at the school that we were serving at. We were excited to be there with these kids. We never knew how blessed we would be. You see, these kids lived life even though they would never live a normal life. They lived hard, enjoyed each other and us, and wanted to simply have a great time. I was humbled in that moment too. I was serving these kids who are the greatest in the Kingdom of heaven. My hope and prayer is that they come to know my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and that he would heal them for his glory.

God is teaching me humility. Rose Kreis told me that I must be willing to follow God's plans and that my plans are here, but that God directs them ultimately. He does direct me. I desire him to do this. I just wish I knew what he was doing in the background as things play out in front of me.

God, please. Give me humility. Give me peace. Let me be a lifelong learner. Amen.